Today I spent so much time trying to invest in my future, I took less time to appreciate all my blessings. Life is like that in a lot of ways. We dance to our own music, play along with the balancing act, and forget to stop and smell the roses.
It’s my Dad’s birthday and I gave little mention to him today. I spent most of my day focusing on opportunities presented to me. Yet the day nears its end and I’m holding on to my memories. Dad’s been gone now for many years but on his birthday, I always pay special tribute to him. How could I have let it go?
I recognized his special day early this morning with a simple prayer. Then I moved on and went about the tasks at hand. I miss my Dad and I have to say that I was very blessed to have him for most of my life.
He died suddenly from a heart attack. It rocked my world. Everything changed for me. That was over 10 years ago and I’m different now. I know one day I will see my Dad again and that’s what really matters.
It doesn’t matter that I forgot to acknowledge his birthday. Or the fact that it was the first time I didn’t cry because today is Oct. 4. A day dedicated for Dad. I have not forgotten him, but sometimes I forget his face. I forget his laugh. I forget how much I miss him. On his birthday I remember all those things. Today I didn’t.
What does that mean? Am I at peace now? I still miss him but I don’t understand. This is really a first for me. Who knows, maybe I’ll cry tomorrow.